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day in the life of me

So my life isn’t super fun or exciting, just pretty average.

I got up after a stressful night of tossing and turning. Play fought with my cats and partner. Chased my cats and gave them a kiss attack. Then I just sat on my phone thinking about all the problems I’m having right now. My partner and I aren’t in a good place. Constant arguing over money and housework. It’s making my mental health go haywire. I try and focus on the important things, but it’s getting harder and harder to figure out what’s important to me and what isn’t.

I don’t have many friends, and the ones I do have are online. I don’t meet up with anyone. All the people I think are my friends, just leave when things get tough. I can be difficult especially at the moment when life is being so stressful for me. I miss who I used to be. So care free. The only problem I used to have is being bullied for my weight. I’ve never been the smallest or prettiest. I’ve always been bigger than everyone else.

But now it’s all about bills and money. Bills going up, money going down. Yeah I should find a job. But I’d be useless. Panic attacks and flashbacks. No one can handle me like that.

I feel like I need to be hypnotised, but even still I don’t think that will do anything. I just want to be free again. Away from my mind and the world around me.

Introduction

Hello all, welcome to my first blog. I have always wanted to do start a blog. But I have always been scared.

Here’s a little about me. My names Teagan Leanne Langston. I am 23 years old from South west Wiltshire UK. I live with my partner and 2 cats. I have been with my partner for 3 years thus October.

I visit my mum as much as I can. She adopted me when I was 4 years old. My adopted dad left when I was 7. I got moved around quite a lot before I got adopted, Mt birth parents weren’t fit to look after me.

My mum and I have had many issues, but since moving out and living with my partner, we are much better. We still disagree because she constantly nag’s me but I see she’s only doing it to protect me. From others and especially myself.

I got bullied a lot back in school, due to my size. I have always been bigger than the rest. I try to be confident but it shows no luck. Most of the time I am very self conscious.

People keep telling me I am very beautiful but I don’t see it. I see myself as a fat blob. I used to self harm because of being bullied. Because of my weight. But my partner loves me, but he does mention my weight and size a few times. Which makes me super self conscious.